My turn to deal

Sometimes the world just takes you for granted too much. The more I try to help others by making their lives easier, the more they become accustomed to the easy way out. So does kindness begets kindness? I doubt so in the kind of society I live in. Not that I am asking people to do something in return for any kind act I perform for them, just their appreciation and that they do not make my job even harder as a result of my helping them.

In the society I grew up in, people do not give thanks when things are up and running efficiently, because to them it's a God-given right that they should expect their lives to be easy with the help of a developed and modern society. But when things go wrong, then there is hell to pay, and people often vent their frustrations on the wrong things/people. We complain, to anyone and everyone who would care to listen. But how many actually go about righting the wrong?

It's easy to say that one is against this wrong and that wrong, but how many actually become a crusader to right those wrongs? For these minority, they have my utmost respect. That is why when I get angry with certain things/people, I just grin and bear with it, because I know that I do not have the courage or knowledge to go about changing such wrongs. I learn to accept it and live with it, and I learn from it and move on. When it comes to being wronged, there are very few things that I cannot swallow my pride and take it lying down. Does that make me a coward? Perhaps. But to me cowards are just smart people whom I sometimes suspect to hold so much contempt for this world that they cease to react to anything that is wrong in this world. They know that the world is a corrupt place, and unlike idealists, they also know that there is nothing that they can do about it and so they do not let anything affect the way they lead their lives.

Anger is a powerful emotion, but for me, contempt is an even more powerful one. So I don't get angry with the wrong things that people have done to me, because to me they are simply just not worth the effort. It's much easier and better to develop contempt for these things, because hey, there are many more worthy things to be angry about, such as love. That's the secret to my famed “zen-ness”. So if you ever screw things up majorly for me, trust me, I'll won't be angry with you or hate you, I'll just treat you as if you are not worth my effort and concern. I'll forgive you even, quite quickly in fact. But I'll never forget to hold that utmost contempt towards you, and I'll never trust you or respect you again.

A more cheerful sidenote: Something interesting my prof showed us during poetry class today. An avant-garde form of poetry using the new media by Young-Hae Chang. Epileptics, please do not watch otherwise I'm not responsible for your health.

http://www.yhchang.com/LOTUS_BLOSSOM.html