I'm not cut out to be a city girl

I haven't been sleeping well lately. Insomnia can get really depressing because it leads to many other problems. As a result of it, I have no appetite even though my stomach churns. So comes the vomiting spells. Dosen't help that I have low blood sugar so along comes to giddy spells too. So I can't think properly and I lose focus. Initially I thought the source of my problem is work stress related. Well maybe part of it is the reason. But last night I decided to take matters in my own hands and change my sleeping environment. So I moved all my pillows into my mum's room and slept on a mattress on the floor. And you know what? First night in months that I slept for 5 hours straight without waking up. It's not alot, but when you have been waking up every 2-3 hours or sometimes toss and turn for 6 hours straight without sleeping a single wink it's a miracle. And so I discovered the root of my problem. The location of my room. It faces a road that is not very big but is very busy almost 24 hrs.

Now you might think after sleeping for 10 years in that room I should be used to it by now. Maybe I was used to it but ever since the start of my university life it has been a very different experience. During my first three years at NTU I was either staying in Hall (where the buses stop coming upon midnight and is generally peaceful except during orientation period), or away on exchange in Mizzou and internship in Nepal (ah, what I would I give for those peaceful nights). So I really started sleeping regularly in my bedroom since I came back from Nepal last year in June. And I realised that's when the insomnia really started. It was still not that bad then, because I was travelling alot to school and for overseas trips so exhaustion usually takes a good toll on me come bedtime. But since the start of this semester I have been going to school lesser and the work I have are more computer-related where I have to sit in front of the computer and type away for the whole day. So I get mentally but not physically drained.

And recently since the start of the year I think there is this group of crazy bastards who decided that they have alot of free time to do night racing on the road facing my bedroom. And so for the past two months I've been tormented by the engines and cheers of these bastards. My sister even witnessed them racing late one night when she came back at around 2am. I wonder why someone has not complained. I have a good mind to go down and take a video of them but I might get beaten up by these people if I go alone.

So for now I'm camping out in my mum's room, where it faces the other side and is such a peaceful haven compared to my room. Honestly, I don't think my parents will ever be able to sell the house even though it's very spacious for a 5 room apartment. Bad location with no MRT nearby and crazy people at night and a military airport with fighter planes zooming overhead and bus depot (not interchange) nearby which means lots of buses passing by every night at 1am and every morning at 5am.

I'm really tired of city dwelling. I think I'm not cut out to thrive in the city. Give me the remote mountains of Nepal anytime. Even without the electricity.